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May. 17th, 2006 @ 08:28 am
Any and all comments to this from CXF posters should be directed to PM and not posted here. Any replies here from posters that do not normally come to my LJ will be deleted.

Okay then, I have to say a few things because, well, because I’m me and that me is an opinionated, over-educated girl who shudders at blatant misconceptions. And I apologize to Ant and Steve for taking this on (though I am taking it out of forum), however, I need, yes need, to reply to some things in here as it applies to other misconceptions of what sexuality is and how it is perceived. Please bear with me yes, I cleaned out all those old messages so you can PM me now.

I’m straight. I am an artist (painter). I went to art college. I’m a writer. I have worked as an actor a few times. I work in Hollywood. I’ve lived here for several years. I have gay and lesbian friends. One of my best friends (former roommate) is bi. I have behaved “badly” in public with her. I sympathize (to a point) the concept of misrepresentation: that sometimes I get labeled something I’m not because of the company I keep. But at the same time I do not pretend to be something that I’m not. Flirt? Sure, to a point, but I don’t present myself as lesbian or bi to people I wish to establish a friendship with. Indeed, I believe that when I have been asked about my sexuality it is because the person asking [I]wanted me to swing their way[/I]; like some of the girls who have the fantasy of ‘turning’ the straight girl. I have never had anyone who knew me, even in the more impersonal Internet conversations, wonder whether or not I was a heterosexual. But then again, I have never wandered into a gay/lesbian/bi chat and flirted with all the girls in there. Indeed, I have gone to a few gay bars in my life and I never came onto a girl, implied I was available or pretended that I was anything but a breeder in a gay bar drinking with the fabulous people.

As to the notion that presenting oneself as gay in order to get acting work: acting is not lying. Please read Adler, Stanislavski, Meisner, and/or Stransberg. Understand the division in the Method and chose a side to train in. So to behave as if you are gay in order to get jobs means that you probably aren’t going to be going far in your career as an actor. There are no characters in acting. [I]You[/I] are the character. An actor is selling themselves, not something/one they made up. So to “be gay” in the hopes of landing jobs isn’t going to work if that’s some misguided character concept. You won’t be furthering anything other than the misconception of your sexuality. Trust me on this as I actually work in the industry. I don’t know what kind of acting coaches, agents and production companies you have in Kansas, but if they are as backwards as it’s implied they are, it’s a wonder any actor from that state gets a job when they come out here. And that dancer guy? Dancers aren’t forced to be gay out here. Please don’t expect me, or anyone, to buy this. It’s one thing to dance ala [I]The Bird Cage[/I] it’s other thing entirely to demand that all the dancers are gay (and it’s against discriminatory union laws). Funny that Eric McCormick isn’t gay, but the dancers on Will & Grace [I]have to be[/I]? Add on this: to say that this is all about acting diminished any connections, friends and otherwise, made here. If you want to be friends with people, using them as acting ‘experiments’ is rather cruel, and quite misguided.

Mooooooo! Apr. 12th, 2006 @ 03:19 pm
I caved

Yup

I got a myspace.com account. I've really become an Internet whore... OH THE HUMANITY!
Current Mood: Medical Herb
Current Music: Taken for Granted - Sia

Yuppers Mar. 28th, 2006 @ 04:55 pm






What kind of Dark Faerie are You? (Girls only with beautiful pics)




Seductive FaerieYou are the Seductive Faerie. You're just made for attracting members of the opposite (and sometimes same) sex. No one can stop looking at you. You know exactly how to deal with people and you are very social and playful.Wings: Red, gray and blackPower: LoveSexual appeal: More like, what isn't your sexual appeal?? You are very attractive in almost every aspect of your being. People are naturally drawn to you as a fun, outgoing person, and you have no trouble at all in finding and seducing that special someone.What you look for in a guy: You don't really care what he's got for hair or build, but you always need to able to look into his deep, sexy eyes. Whether they're slate grey or vibrant emerald, you could stare into them for hours. Sigh...
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Oh yeah! I suck at poker! Mar. 28th, 2006 @ 03:38 pm
Your Life on Battlestar Galactica by bookwormdarlin
Your name
You hail from
You live to
Starbuck admires yourIntegrity
Baltar was heard whisperingYou're a terrible poker player
Adama always calls you"cheeky"
Apollo wishes youwould be his best friend
Tigh once drank to yourNumerous crash landings
Your Call Sign isVertigo
Your chances of being a cylon: 26%
Your chances of reaching earth: 43%
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Current Mood: Uh.... yeah?
Current Music: Indulge Me - Olive

Salty Chocolate Balls? Mar. 28th, 2006 @ 03:14 pm
...apparently no more! Who says Isaac Hayes is a crazy fuck? Well, certainly not Tom Cruise! Engarde!
Current Mood: Geeps Mr. Johnson!
Current Music: Bang Bang - Rammstein

Heh! I hooked up with Mal! Mar. 7th, 2006 @ 01:21 pm
Your Day in the Firefly 'Verse by howpaperrusts
Your Name
Your JobMercenary
You got in a fight with
Because youate the last Strawberry
but you helped fight
and you hooked up with
But at the end of the day you left Serenity to goTo the Guild
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Gah! Mar. 7th, 2006 @ 01:09 pm
Shut up and make me a sammich bitch!
Current Mood: devious
Current Music: Day After Day - The Violent Fems

It's a chevy van! Jan. 1st, 2006 @ 11:36 pm
What is it? WHAT IS IT?

It's a box.

What's in the box?

I envy you.

You envy me? You ARE me!

NO!

What's in the fucking box?

Whatever you do, stay away!

What the fuck is in the fucking box!?



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Current Mood: SPARKLES!
Current Music: Lucy in the Sky With Diamonds - William Shatner

Make with the happiness! Dec. 7th, 2005 @ 07:28 pm
Black olives










what more is there to say?
Current Mood: pounce!
Current Music: Hello It's Me - Todd Rundgren

Dear black Jesus Nov. 30th, 2005 @ 09:49 pm
You know if you're that pathetic that you need to write slash/het fan fic for a cartoon, something is wrong with you. No really. And no telling me that I'm the sorry one with issues: I go on dates. I've actually had boys kiss me. I don't need to create some sorry-ass fantasy world based on a cartoon - or on any fictional property. I actually live in the real world. Boys not only talk to me, they go out with me and take me to dinner and have ACTUAL LIVING RELATIONSHIPS WITH ME. Imagine that? Imagine that there is life beyond the Internet and that it can actually be better than this virtual crap.

So for all those sorry people who don't know that real sex is better than writing about pretend characters having pretend sex - go get a boyfriend. Or girlfriend. Or even a blowup doll. The Net is entertainment, not a substitute for real life.

And then, the little bunny pulled out a semi-automatic and killed everyone riding the bus. The end.
Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: PuddleMonkey - Looper

Maple Syrup Nov. 3rd, 2005 @ 01:31 am
The wonderful thing about Tiggers
Is Tigger's a wonderful thing
Their tops are made out of rubber
And their bottoms are made out of spring

And they go

Bouncy bouncy bouncy bouncy bounce
Current Mood: Tigger!
Current Music: About Her - Malcolm McLaren

Drag Queens on parade! Nov. 1st, 2005 @ 08:35 pm
Halloween rocks total ass! Love the happy gayness of West Hollywood. Many pretty boys, all too pretty for their own selves. *sigh* if only I was a gay man....
Current Mood: Flurfy!
Current Music: Somewhere Down this Crazy River - Robbie Robertson

Skittles Oct. 28th, 2005 @ 08:53 pm
Someone slap that cop!
Current Mood: drunk
Current Music: The Theme from Fraggle Rock

Fruit porn Oct. 26th, 2005 @ 11:48 pm
Cumquats! What the fuck are they? The name alone scares the shit out of me. But it’s fun to say – CUMQUATS! It’s almost dirty. Say it about 15 times in a row, you’ll feel naughty and might need to take a shower.
Current Mood: NAUGHTY!
Current Music: Ghost in the Shell (Theme) - Kanno Yanno

hahahaha! Oct. 23rd, 2005 @ 01:12 am
Boy it must suck to be you
Current Mood: Snarky!
Current Music: My Way - The Sex Pistols
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» Wild SEX ORGY with Bill Cosby!
Yeah that's right bitches.... they are back!

Jell-O Pudding Pops! Fuck yeah! Jell-O Pudding Pops are fucking back and it's like having freaking wild monkey sex with the Coz.

DAMN!
» Of course! It makes perfect sense - to me!
You scored as Rogue. Rogue is a strong but tragic personality. She loves Gambit. Because of her mutant powers, she cannot touch anyone without hurting them. Therefore, she longs for human contact. However, this southern gal's strong personality has allowed her to deal with this. Powers: Absorbs lifeforce and powers by touch, Super strength, and flight

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Rogue

90%

Jean Grey

75%

Wolverine

70%

Colossus

65%

Gambit

60%

Iceman

45%

Storm

45%

Emma Frost

40%

Nightcrawler

40%

Beast

25%

Cyclops

15%

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» Shoe horn!
It's like having a conversation with yourself...
» Thanks youse very much
Egg drop soup (also called egg flower soup, though I can't understand why as there are no flowers in it) from the Hong Kong in Westwood is so very fucking yummy! Gawd! I love me some cheap, greasy Chinese takeout! Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
» Rain! Rain! Rain!
Yay! Penguins have invaded the White House and pantsed Dubya. Dick Cheney looked on.


And that is all I have to say on the matter.
» Whiny Babies!
Oh whaaaaa! Don't tell me what to do! Whaaaa! I'm a grown up now! I wear big-boy pants and everything! Whaaaaa! I don't like having you tell me what to do even though I AGREED TO IT WHEN I SIGNED UP.

Yeah you did fucknut. You signed the agreement. Live with it.
» Stop the INSANITY!
Is there a reason why people are stupid?

I just ask coz, you know, I think they need to stop breeding. Stupid people that is.
» Oh like that doesn't mean I'm not insanely fucked up...
Advanced Global Personality Test Results
Extraversion |||||||||||||| 53%
Stability |||||||||||| 43%
Orderliness |||||| 23%
Accommodation |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Interdependence |||||||||||| 50%
Intellectual |||||||||||||||| 63%
Mystical |||||||||||||| 56%
Artistic |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Religious |||||| 30%
Hedonism |||||| 30%
Materialism |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Narcissism |||| 16%
Adventurousness |||||||||||| 50%
Work ethic |||||| 30%
Self absorbed |||| 16%
Conflict seeking |||||| 23%
Need to dominate || 10%
Romantic |||||||||||||| 56%
Avoidant |||||||||| 36%
Anti-authority |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Wealth |||||||||| 36%
Dependency || 10%
Change averse |||||| 30%
Cautiousness |||||||||||| 43%
Individuality |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Sexuality |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Peter pan complex |||||||||||||| 56%
Physical security |||||||||||||| 56%
Physical Fitness |||||||||||||||| 64%
Histrionic || 10%
Paranoia |||||| 30%
Vanity |||||| 23%
Hypersensitivity |||||||||||||||| 70%
Female cliche |||||||||||| 50%
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Stability results were moderately low which suggests you are worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious.

Orderliness results were low which suggests you are overly flexible, improvised, and fun seeking at the expense too often of reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment.

Extraversion results were medium which suggests you are moderately talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting.


trait snapshot:

messy, disorganized, not rule conscious, rebellious, depressed, rash, weird, ambivalent about chaos, likes bizarre things, anti-authority, not good at saving money, not a perfectionist, leaves many things unfinished, low self control, strange, desires more attention, romantic daydreamer, abstract, impractical, unproductive, leisurely, likes the unknown

» Where art tho Guy Gardner?
Whazzup wid da hatin' Homeslice? All lov-izzle f' da G'nort-shazzizle! He be one fucking dope, phat dawg!

Word.
» Wo ist der Flugptaz?
Gibt es Schreckladungen? Bitte zeigen Sie mir! Haben sie Minen gelegt? Ich brauche munition und Bremsflussigkeit! Ich mochte ein Panzerwagon, Mschinengewehre, und Pakgeschutz aufgeben! Zeigen Sie mir!


Wollen Sir eine Zigarette? Bestimmt!
» Frizzle
Welcome to my nightmare.
» Electronic ankle bracelets
Take that you filthy midget!

Then I beat them about the head and neck with giant sausages made of festering pork. My arrest came later. But before such time I was going pure Neolithic on the hinders of those swarmy midget bastards.






Oh joy!
» That's one hot piece of veal ass
I'd eat dog food before I had to resort to Dumpster diving...
» World War III is a Giant Ice Cream Cone
Cherry on the top
Like a nuclear warhead
Nuclear bomb
Gonna lift the trigger
I had a
Dog Fly Religion
Neutron
On a chocolate sundae
Look, mom
Fallout is stuck between my teeth
Atomic toothpick
Picks the tartar
Clean it out
Like a yum, yum, yum
Then blow out my brains
With a shotgun gun
I had a smile
Like old Jim dandy
Radio, radioactive candy
Yum, yum, yum
» Fuck everyone
No really, fuck everyone. I'm so done with this shit. Fuck Lithum. Fuck it all.
» Deceitful Bitch
Yup she looked right in my face and lied to me about sleeping with him. She kept saying she was my friend and wanted to stay friends and she didn't like him and he came on to her but she said no: she asked me to work on some stuff with her and go to the gym with her. She told me how nice and wonderful I was and how she enjoyed our friendship. I trusted her. And all the time she playing me for a fool. Then she calls me and says "Ooops! He tricked me into it! I didn't want to. You're still my friend, blah blah blah."

My thoughts? She's a cunt. Pure and simple. Oh no, wait - she's a psycho cunt. I'm praying Karma will kick them both in their fucking asses. I will feel sorry for them: for about 2 minutes. She more so than he - we were sort of on the outs anyway, he and I. But she was my friend and I never thought girlfriends would fuck over other girlfriends. So go out with him you fucking skanky bitch. Go out with him and make sure you go to the places you know I hang out in so I can see you both there. Together. Rub it in all you want. I wish there was a hell, coz your skanky ass would be going there.

Bitch.

Okay, thus ends my only serious entry into this journal.
» Snap Happy
Goddamn liver is starting a mutany! Fuck my liver! Fuck it dead! I'd drown it in beer if I could.

When I want to listen to your filthy opinions I'll pee on the floor and chant, "Dogbowlchillipeppermudhatchwinklebeeculpeppergiantvagstainedskivviesihateeveryone". You know that will work. We all do.

So... who here likes puppies?
» Purple
Shut up and make me a sandwich
» Entertain me
I got nothin'
» It's burning a hole in my pocket
I don't know, but I'll quote her on this:

"I'll give you 50 bucks if you let me blow you."




Run away. Just do it.
» Miss Keri
"I unzip for Hobbits"
» It needs to be said
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» Goodbye Fucknut!
Yes that's right, my filthy roommate has finally left. He stank. He was a festering sore on the buttocks of humanity. And now, he's gone. Of course, he left quite the mess for me to clean up. Think you're getting your security back cocksucker? Oh, I think not.

Fucking asshole. Don't let the door hit you in the ass as you're leaving!
» Sharkey's Machine
Ah! It all makes sense now!
» This is getting scary
I really can't articulate what I need to say, so I'm going to make surrealist haikus (the Internet version of interpretive dance):

Cooking I am stunned
Understanding happens here
Not what I expect

Driving red pickup
Just like Louisiana!
Talk about the rain

He is listening
Your Palomino pony
Talk about all the scars


If any of this makes sense to you, either you were a fly on the wall or you are inside my head. And if you’re inside my head then that means I’m a lot crazier than I thought I might be though I really don’t think I’m neurotic…

Hey how about those Red Sox?
» It's not looking good for the Americans
Yeah, if I was born pretty I don't think I would have this problem. But you know what? Fuck them. I hate being obessive/compulsive. And who wouldn't? Now I just have to get a big black Chevy pickup with a gun rack. And I have to beat things up.

Oh and the roommate still hasn't move his skanky ass out. You'd think that since he hasn't lived here in 5 months (but pays rent) he'd be a little smart and move his shit out. But no. Well, as long as the money is flowing I think I can handle his long absence here. I just want his shit out so I can clear the stink out of his room. Yikes.
» You know it's true
Boys are stupid. But I like them anyway.
» Yeah baby!
Yeah I like monkeys, what of it? You know you do to. They are funny and they throw their own poo. It's like a flea-ridden comedy circus!

Bubbles the Chimp is stuffed and hanging out in Michael Jackson's closet. You know, the one he molests kids in.
» Frothing Devil Dogs!
What are you looking at? Don't make me come over there! I'll do it! I'LL DO IT!

Yeah, then I cracked a beer and all was right in the world.
» Goddammit!
FUCK! My cell phone died and took all my phone numbers with it. FUCK!

I fucking hate everything!
» Crap on a stick
Well at least it's better than being fed to giant, blood-sucking rats.


.......... I guess
» Love and ovaries
Go ahead. Take it. It's not like I'm using it anyway.
» Give it to me Gonzo!
Hey where is my Muppet porn? What does a girl have to do around here to get some quality Muppet porn?
» I'm waiting....
Oh my fucking God! Will you just go ahead already! Man, what do I have to do? Dance naked or something? Do it already will you!

Jeez.....
» Park that over here, will ya?
Okay maybe Cajuns aren't so bad.

Maybe.

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