This Place is Hell

Wed, 17 May 2006 15:31:19 GMT

Any and all comments to this from CXF posters should be directed to PM and not posted here. Any replies here from posters that do not normally come to my LJ will be deleted.

Okay then, I have to say a few things because, well, because I’m me and that me is an opinionated, over-educated girl who shudders at blatant misconceptions. And I apologize to Ant and Steve for taking this on (though I am taking it out of forum), however, I need, yes need, to reply to some things in here as it applies to other misconceptions of what sexuality is and how it is perceived. Please bear with me yes, I cleaned out all those old messages so you can PM me now.

I’m straight. I am an artist (painter). I went to art college. I’m a writer. I have worked as an actor a few times. I work in Hollywood. I’ve lived here for several years. I have gay and lesbian friends. One of my best friends (former roommate) is bi. I have behaved “badly” in public with her. I sympathize (to a point) the concept of misrepresentation: that sometimes I get labeled something I’m not because of the company I keep. But at the same time I do not pretend to be something that I’m not. Flirt? Sure, to a point, but I don’t present myself as lesbian or bi to people I wish to establish a friendship with. Indeed, I believe that when I have been asked about my sexuality it is because the person asking [I]wanted me to swing their way[/I]; like some of the girls who have the fantasy of ‘turning’ the straight girl. I have never had anyone who knew me, even in the more impersonal Internet conversations, wonder whether or not I was a heterosexual. But then again, I have never wandered into a gay/lesbian/bi chat and flirted with all the girls in there. Indeed, I have gone to a few gay bars in my life and I never came onto a girl, implied I was available or pretended that I was anything but a breeder in a gay bar drinking with the fabulous people.

As to the notion that presenting oneself as gay in order to get acting work: acting is not lying. Please read Adler, Stanislavski, Meisner, and/or Stransberg. Understand the division in the Method and chose a side to train in. So to behave as if you are gay in order to get jobs means that you probably aren’t going to be going far in your career as an actor. There are no characters in acting. [I]You[/I] are the character. An actor is selling themselves, not something/one they made up. So to “be gay” in the hopes of landing jobs isn’t going to work if that’s some misguided character concept. You won’t be furthering anything other than the misconception of your sexuality. Trust me on this as I actually work in the industry. I don’t know what kind of acting coaches, agents and production companies you have in Kansas, but if they are as backwards as it’s implied they are, it’s a wonder any actor from that state gets a job when they come out here. And that dancer guy? Dancers aren’t forced to be gay out here. Please don’t expect me, or anyone, to buy this. It’s one thing to dance ala [I]The Bird Cage[/I] it’s other thing entirely to demand that all the dancers are gay (and it’s against discriminatory union laws). Funny that Eric McCormick isn’t gay, but the dancers on Will & Grace [I]have to be[/I]? Add on this: to say that this is all about acting diminished any connections, friends and otherwise, made here. If you want to be friends with people, using them as acting ‘experiments’ is rather cruel, and quite misguided.

Mooooooo!

Wed, 12 Apr 2006 22:22:48 GMT

I caved

Yup

I got a myspace.com account. I've really become an Internet whore... OH THE HUMANITY!

Yuppers

Wed, 29 Mar 2006 00:58:17 GMT

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Seductive FaerieYou are the Seductive Faerie. You're just made for attracting members of the opposite (and sometimes same) sex. No one can stop looking at you. You know exactly how to deal with people and you are very social and playful.Wings: Red, gray and blackPower: LoveSexual appeal: More like, what isn't your sexual appeal?? You are very attractive in almost every aspect of your being. People are naturally drawn to you as a fun, outgoing person, and you have no trouble at all in finding and seducing that special someone.What you look for in a guy: You don't really care what he's got for hair or build, but you always need to able to look into his deep, sexy eyes. Whether they're slate grey or vibrant emerald, you could stare into them for hours. Sigh...
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Oh yeah! I suck at poker!

Tue, 28 Mar 2006 23:42:14 GMT

Your Life on Battlestar Galactica by bookwormdarlin

Your name

You hail from

You live to

Starbuck admires your

Integrity

Baltar was heard whispering

You're a terrible poker player

Adama always calls you

"cheeky"

Apollo wishes you

would be his best friend

Tigh once drank to your

Numerous crash landings

Your Call Sign is

Vertigo

Your chances of being a cylon: 26%

Your chances of reaching earth: 43%

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Salty Chocolate Balls?

Tue, 28 Mar 2006 23:19:08 GMT

...apparently no more! Who says Isaac Hayes is a crazy fuck? Well, certainly not Tom Cruise! Engarde!

Heh! I hooked up with Mal!

Tue, 07 Mar 2006 21:24:32 GMT

Your Day in the Firefly 'Verse by howpaperrusts
Your Name
Your Job	Mercenary
You got in a fight with
Because you	ate the last Strawberry
but you helped fight
and you hooked up with
But at the end of the day you left Serenity to go	To the Guild

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Gah!

Tue, 07 Mar 2006 21:12:50 GMT

Shut up and make me a sammich bitch!

It's a chevy van!

Mon, 02 Jan 2006 07:44:39 GMT

What is it? WHAT IS IT?

It's a box.

What's in the box?

I envy you.

You envy me? You ARE me!

NO!

What's in the fucking box?

Whatever you do, stay away!

What the fuck is in the fucking box!?

http://www.collegehumor.com/movies/159749/

Make with the happiness!

Thu, 08 Dec 2005 03:33:01 GMT

Black olives

what more is there to say?

Dear black Jesus

Thu, 01 Dec 2005 05:58:16 GMT

You know if you're that pathetic that you need to write slash/het fan fic for a cartoon, something is wrong with you. No really. And no telling me that I'm the sorry one with issues: I go on dates. I've actually had boys kiss me. I don't need to create some sorry-ass fantasy world based on a cartoon - or on any fictional property. I actually live in the real world. Boys not only talk to me, they go out with me and take me to dinner and have ACTUAL LIVING RELATIONSHIPS WITH ME. Imagine that? Imagine that there is life beyond the Internet and that it can actually be better than this virtual crap.

So for all those sorry people who don't know that real sex is better than writing about pretend characters having pretend sex - go get a boyfriend. Or girlfriend. Or even a blowup doll. The Net is entertainment, not a substitute for real life.

And then, the little bunny pulled out a semi-automatic and killed everyone riding the bus. The end.

Maple Syrup

Thu, 03 Nov 2005 09:34:53 GMT

The wonderful thing about Tiggers
Is Tigger's a wonderful thing
Their tops are made out of rubber
And their bottoms are made out of spring

And they go

Bouncy bouncy bouncy bouncy bounce

Drag Queens on parade!

Wed, 02 Nov 2005 04:39:50 GMT

Halloween rocks total ass! Love the happy gayness of West Hollywood. Many pretty boys, all too pretty for their own selves. *sigh* if only I was a gay man....

Skittles

Sat, 29 Oct 2005 03:56:30 GMT

Someone slap that cop!

Fruit porn

Thu, 27 Oct 2005 06:54:17 GMT

Cumquats! What the fuck are they? The name alone scares the shit out of me. But it’s fun to say – CUMQUATS! It’s almost dirty. Say it about 15 times in a row, you’ll feel naughty and might need to take a shower.

hahahaha!

Sun, 23 Oct 2005 08:15:38 GMT

Boy it must suck to be you

Wild SEX ORGY with Bill Cosby!

Tue, 18 Oct 2005 01:49:09 GMT

Yeah that's right bitches.... they are back!

Jell-O Pudding Pops! Fuck yeah! Jell-O Pudding Pops are fucking back and it's like having freaking wild monkey sex with the Coz.

DAMN!

Of course! It makes perfect sense - to me!

Sat, 24 Sep 2005 01:55:18 GMT

You scored as Rogue. Rogue is a strong but tragic personality. She loves Gambit. Because of her mutant powers, she cannot touch anyone without hurting them. Therefore, she longs for human contact. However, this southern gal's strong personality has allowed her to deal with this. Powers: Absorbs lifeforce and powers by touch, Super strength, and flight

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Rogue

90%

Jean Grey

75%

Wolverine

70%

Colossus

65%

Gambit

60%

Iceman

45%

Storm

45%

Emma Frost

40%

Nightcrawler

40%

Beast

25%

Cyclops

15%

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Shoe horn!

Sat, 24 Sep 2005 01:47:01 GMT

It's like having a conversation with yourself...

Thanks youse very much

Thu, 22 Sep 2005 01:16:02 GMT

Egg drop soup (also called egg flower soup, though I can't understand why as there are no flowers in it) from the Hong Kong in Westwood is so very fucking yummy! Gawd! I love me some cheap, greasy Chinese takeout! Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

Rain! Rain! Rain!

Tue, 13 Sep 2005 00:50:50 GMT

Yay! Penguins have invaded the White House and pantsed Dubya. Dick Cheney looked on.

And that is all I have to say on the matter.

Whiny Babies!

Tue, 06 Sep 2005 07:17:08 GMT

Oh whaaaaa! Don't tell me what to do! Whaaaa! I'm a grown up now! I wear big-boy pants and everything! Whaaaaa! I don't like having you tell me what to do even though I AGREED TO IT WHEN I SIGNED UP.

Yeah you did fucknut. You signed the agreement. Live with it.

Stop the INSANITY!

Sun, 28 Aug 2005 08:36:40 GMT

Is there a reason why people are stupid?

I just ask coz, you know, I think they need to stop breeding. Stupid people that is.

Oh like that doesn't mean I'm not insanely fucked up...

Wed, 24 Aug 2005 01:54:16 GMT

Advanced Global Personality Test Results

Extraversion	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	53%
Stability	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Orderliness	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Accommodation	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%
Interdependence	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Intellectual	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Mystical	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Artistic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	90%
Religious	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Hedonism	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Materialism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	83%
Narcissism	\|\|\|\|	16%
Adventurousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Work ethic	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Self absorbed	\|\|\|\|	16%
Conflict seeking	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Need to dominate	\|\|	10%

Romantic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Avoidant	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Anti-authority	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%
Wealth	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Dependency	\|\|	10%
Change averse	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Cautiousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Individuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	83%
Sexuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	90%
Peter pan complex	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Physical security	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Physical Fitness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	64%
Histrionic	\|\|	10%
Paranoia	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Vanity	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Hypersensitivity	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Female cliche	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%

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Stability results were moderately low which suggests you are worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious.

Orderliness results were low which suggests you are overly flexible, improvised, and fun seeking at the expense too often of reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment.

Extraversion results were medium which suggests you are moderately talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting.

trait snapshot:

messy, disorganized, not rule conscious, rebellious, depressed, rash, weird, ambivalent about chaos, likes bizarre things, anti-authority, not good at saving money, not a perfectionist, leaves many things unfinished, low self control, strange, desires more attention, romantic daydreamer, abstract, impractical, unproductive, leisurely, likes the unknown

Where art tho Guy Gardner?

Wed, 24 Aug 2005 01:03:02 GMT

Whazzup wid da hatin' Homeslice? All lov-izzle f' da G'nort-shazzizle! He be one fucking dope, phat dawg!

Word.

Wo ist der Flugptaz?

Tue, 23 Aug 2005 05:23:45 GMT

Gibt es Schreckladungen? Bitte zeigen Sie mir! Haben sie Minen gelegt? Ich brauche munition und Bremsflussigkeit! Ich mochte ein Panzerwagon, Mschinengewehre, und Pakgeschutz aufgeben! Zeigen Sie mir!

Wollen Sir eine Zigarette? Bestimmt!